It's August again and I am reminded of the last month Christa spent with us before she was officially 'sick' or diagnosed with medulloblastoma. Her last month as a healthy child was spent partying! First of all it was her good friend Sinead's birthday, and then Chloe's birthday and then Gabi ( a friend of Chloe's) birthday, which was the last birthday she got to really enjoy without being knowingly sick. Although, Gabi's birthday was only 3 days prior to her diagnosis. It is still unbelievable how our lives can change so quickly.
This year however, the birthday celebrations are tinged with a bit of sadness for me. I couldn't bring myself to attend Sinead's birthday party with Chloe....seeing a bunch of 4 year olds jumping around and having fun the way they did when Christa was around last year would just be too painful for me.
I was almost going to not have the kind of birthday party that Chloe's grown accustomed to this year (where mom goes all crazy with ideas for crafts, games, baking, decor etc.), but decided that we should go ahead and celebrate like we normally would because Chloe did so deserve it. She has been so incredibly good and strong through all of this. And so this year, Chloe's decided on having a Tinkerbell party. Christa would have so enjoyed it! She used to always yell "Tinkerbell!" at the beginning of the Disney movies where the letters D-V-D would pop up and then Tinkerbell would appear at the end of it.
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