Monday, June 23, 2008

Ballerina Girls

Chloe has been asking me to go watch her during ballet lesson at school. I haven't been able to make it until now. It was fun watching her and the other children dance, but I couldn't help having this sense of sadness seeing the other children from Christa's class now old enough to participate in the ballet lesson. I knew that Christa would have enjoyed it so much and would have been so cute doing the skips and gallops. She always greeted us with her little skip whenever we fetched her from school, Sunday school, or granny's house. I am reminded of this photo I took of Chloe and Christa not too long before Christa took ill. She wanted to dress up and be a ballerina just like her sister.

To Christa my dear ballerina girl,

You would have made a beautiful ballerina. But I know that you are dancing the most beautiful dance now for Jesus together with all His angels before His throne. I love and miss you lots.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Missing Christa on a Rainy Day

Chloe is playing Chris Tomlin's CD again. It always reminds me of the last few weeks , and days we spent with Christa. So many of the songs were so appropriate for what we were experiencing then. This song "The Way I Was Made" always makes me think of our last day with Christa and how I need to continue living my life.

Caught in the half-light,
I'm caught alone,
Waking up to the sunrise and the radio,
Feels like I'm tied up, what's holding me?
Just praying today will be the day I go free

I want to live like there's no tomorrow
I want to dance like no one's around
I want to sing like nobody's listening
Before I lay my body down
I want to give like I have plenty
I want to love like I'm not afraid
I want to be the man I was meant to be
I want to be the way I was made

Made in your likeness,
Made with Your hands
Made to discover who You are
And who I am
All I've forgotten help me to find
All that You've promised let it be in my life


"Clearly, accomplishement in life cannot be measured in terms of years alone. It often happens that those that die young have accomplished more than others who live to old age. Even infants, who sometimes have been with their parents only a few days, or even hours, may leave profound influences that change the entire course of the life of the family. And undoubtedly, from the Divine viewpoint, the specific purpose for which they were sent into the world was accomplished. It is our right neither to take life prematurely, nor to insist on its extension beyond the mark that God has set for it."

Loraine Boettner

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Happy Father's Day

Piggybacks and fun, that's the stuff that fathers are made of...

Dear Papa,

Thank you for being the best papa in the world. I love you.

Love from,

Saturday, June 14, 2008

New Family Photos Today

Our first family portrait session together as an entire, dad, Chloe, Rachel, granny, grandpa, Aunty Wendy, & Uncle Richard. Wish Christa could have been there with us. She would have finished chemo treatment by now. We never got to take a proper family picture together before Christa went to be with Jesus. But I guess in our memories then, she will always be the strong, healthy, happy little girl instead of without hair, with feeding tube, etc. The only professional portrait we have as a family together was taken during Christa's first visit to Malaysia. I guess life goes on and we will be making new memories. But you my dear sweet Christa will always remain a part of this family. And we look forward to seeing you again in heaven one day where we will never have to be apart again.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Chloe wishes she could play with Christa...

"We always have a nice time playing together. And we always like to have a nice tea party with all the toys."

Hope that Chloe will find a new play mate in Rachel soon. The bond will never be the same though, but in time I'm sure it will grow stronger. Christa will always have a special place in our hearts and memories.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

My first blog is dedicated to my beloved Christa

I will always miss you....

You are always close to my heart...

My First Blog!

Hahah...can't believe I'm doing this. I have no idea what this is all about. Wonder if I'll get hooked