Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Happy Would be 5th Birthday

14th October 2004-the day Christa entered this world and became part of our family. Who would have known that we would only have her for 3 and a half short years?

Today in Auckland they found the body of the toddler that was missing since last week. How would the family have known that the day they went to clear the grandparent's house would be the last time they would see their precious daughter? It is so easy to take life forgranted especially the ones around us that we see everyday. I myself am guilty of that all the time....another story? another nappy to change? more whining? Why can't I just have some peace and quiet to do my own thing? But what if there was no tomorrow to share? What if all I had was peace and quiet? Oh God, on this day as we remember Christa's birthday, please help me to also remember the precious gift of life that you have given us and not to take anything or anyone forgranted. Help me to live moment by moment; not thinking too far ahead and wishing for things to come, or dwelling on the past and ignoring the present.

I miss you so much my precious little Christa. Rachel is reminding me so much of you. You would have so enjoyed having her as your little sister. Tomorrow would have been your first day at big school with Chloe. Chloe and I think that you would have been the tallest girl in class! We love you lots. You are always in our hearts and minds....forever a part of us.

Monday, May 4, 2009

My heart

Proverbs 14:10
Each heart knows its own bitterness, and no one else can share its joy.

Proverbs 14:13
Even in laughter the heart may ache, and joy may end in grief

A sorrow that words cannot express is what I am going through inwardly right now. The storm has come and gone. Everything is quiet and still. The sun is even shining right now, but the shattered pieces from the storm are still left behind. I miss Christa...I cherish the memories of her, but I can't have anymore of her. There will be no new experiences to share, or new memories to be made. All I have is in the past except for the hope of a future one day when we shall meet again in heaven. But for now I have to be content with whatever I have right now.

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Christa's first birthday in heaven

One whole year since you left this earth to be in heaven with Jesus,
No words can describe the aching and longing I've felt for you,
Life seems to go on but yet it's not quite the same without you in our lives,
What wouldn't I give to have you back in our lives, or even for one more moment of just holding you close
But today as think of the day you slipped away from us,
I think also of how you were 'born' into heaven to be with Jesus for all eternity
In my 'selfishness' I still mourn for you
But in my heart of hearts I know that there is no where else you would rather be than with our God and Maker
Happy 1st Birthday in heaven my sweet child...funny how you will be 'older' in heaven than you parents!